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Chapter 15
Brian's View
I was sitting on the couch when I noticed the album I was looking at earlier on the floor. I picked it up and started flipping through the pages when Tiffany came and sat next to me putting her head on my shoulder.
"What cha lookin' at?" she asked.
"A picture album of yours," I replied.
"Find anything interesting?"
"Not yet. I'm trying to find any pictures of you naked."
She hit my arm playfully, "You're gross and you're not going to find one in there."
"Why not? Everyone has pictures of themselves naked. You're telling me that you don't have any?
"Yes I do but there in Colorado and I was like 5 years old in them."
"So! Hey who are these people?" I asked stopping at one picture that had many people on it.
"Oh that one! Well that's my oldest brother Tim. That one's my second oldest brother David. That's my other brother and sister Alicia and John. They're twins. That's Michael who is the youngest out of all of us and that's my mom Kate and that's my dad James," she said pointing to each one of the figures.
"Who's that?" I said pointing to a guy that had his arm around Tiffany and had his head on her shoulder.
"Oh… that's… my first… boyfriend. He…he…he died from lung cancer," she said lifting her head from my shoulder and fiddling with her hands.
"I'm sorry. Did you love him?"
She shook her head slowly, "He was Nick's and I other best friend and when we were in 8th grade Steven asked me out. We were really close. We did everything together but when I was 16, two weeks before my birthday, he called me saying that something was wrong with him and that's when I found out that he was diagnosed with lung cancer. I spent everyday in the hospital by his side. I even had my birthday in his hospital room. He got me this little teddy bear that was holding a big red heart and on it it said 'Tiffany I will always love you no matter what happens. Never forget me. Your Teddy Bear, Steven' It was so sweet. Anyway 2 days later he died. I was there to witness it. I remember it so clearly. He just woke up from sleeping and I noticed that he was much paler then usual. He barely moved and it was hard for him to talk. I was getting worried and I wanted to get a doctor but he said it was to late. His last words before he died were 'I Love You Tiffany'. After he said that he closed his eyes and stopped breathing. It was the most horrible experience of my life."
"I'm really sorry Tiffany. Did Nick come to the funeral?"
She nodded her head and started to cry uncontrollably so I wrapped her in a hug. She really did love the guy.
"The…bad…thing…about it…was…that…I…lost my…virginity…to him," she said in between sobs.
What I just heard was shocking. She wasn't a virgin and she told me that she was and she was saving herself for marriage, "What!?"
"I lost my virginity," she said sniffling.
"But you told me you were a virgin and that you were saving yourself for marriage and to make matters worse you were only 16!"
"So! I didn't want you to think that I was a slut and I wanted to make a good impression towards you!"
"I would never ever think that you were a slut and you didn't need to make a good impression! You already had me as a boyfriend!"
"Yes I did have to impress you! I'm only 19 and I thought you would think that I was boring! You're telling me that you're not a virgin!"
"Yes I am! I'm a virgin Tiffany! I actually wanted to lose it to you and you would lose it to me but you already had it with some dead guy that probably didn't even care about you! He probably was just using you to get sex!"
"Don't you ever talk about Steven like that! We loved each other so much and he did not just want sex. That was both of our decisions! We decided to have it! We thought it would bring us closer together and you have no right to talk about someone like that if you don't even know him!" she screamed as she slapped my face hard and ran to her room slamming the door.
3 Months Later
Tiffany's View
Brian and the guys have been gone for three months. Brian and I are still in a fight. I didn't even go to the airport to say bye. I did say bye to the other guys when they came to pick Brian and AJ up though. I've talked to all of them, except Brian, since then. Right now they were in Germany filming a video for 'Don't Want You Back'. I've been sitting here not knowing what to do. There's nothing! Absolutely nothing!
"Let's watch some TV!" I said to myself plopping onto the couch with a whole bunch of junk food. "No, no, no ah here we go! The Brady Bunch!" I was about to put a hand full of popcorn in my mouth when the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Waz up Lilly!?"
"Pooh! How are you? "
"I'm fine so are the other guys except for Brian. I'm kind of worried about him." Howie said.
"Why? What's wrong?"
"Well he's been really down lately. Actually ever since we even gone on tour. Have you talked to him yet?"
"No, I don't want to talk to him."
"Do you hate him or something?"
"Oh no nothing like that! I just don't think he wants to talk to me so I don't want to talk to him."
"I think you need to talk to him about this fight you guys are having. I mean if you guys really love each other you would make up or at least talk to each other."
"I know I'll talk to him soon. Don't worry. So how bad is he?"
"Pretty bad. He even called Leighanne."
"W…what?"
"He called Leighanne and now she's on tour with us. I'm as shocked as you are. She's been on tour with us for a couple of weeks. Brian said not to tell you but I couldn't keep this away from you."
"But Brian said that I couldn't go on tour because of the Jive people."
"I know but Brian somehow convinced our managers for her to come with us. I think it's the dumbest thing he has ever done. I mean she broke his heart and now he's turning to her for comfort. Anyway I called because I got you a job."
"A job?"
"Yeah so you can come with us for the rest of the tour."
"Really! What's my job?"
"Hair and Make-up"
"Ooh! I love putting make-up on people! So when will I be going?"
"Tomorrow at 2:30 in the afternoon. I wanted you on tour with us and I wanted you to talk to Brian in person and make up and ask why Leighanne is on tour with us because all of us want to know. He barely talks to us. He's always with Leighanne."
"Do you think he might be cheating on me?"
"I really don't know Tiffany. That thought has crossed my mind and all of the other guys' minds but don't jump to conclusions. He really loves you and he wouldn't do that to you."
"I really hope not."
'Howie we need you', I heard in the back round.
"OK just hold on a minute. Hey Lilly I need to go. I'll call you later and so will the other guys."
"OK! I'll talk to you soon! Bye Pooh!"
"Bye Lilly!"
I hung up the phone slowly. Is Brian cheating on me? Why is Leighanne on tour with them and not me? I was hurt that Brian would have the woman that broke his heart go on tour with them and not have the woman he loves come on tour. Does he even love me or was it all a lie?
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