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Chapter 44
Tiffany's View
Brian and I just got done seeing a movie. We were now headed to God knows where. Brian got us lost. I don't know how he could've gotten lost! I mean, C'mon, we live here!
"Brian..."
"What?" he snapped.
"Nevermind," I said turning back to the front.
"No tell me! If you're going to bite my head off you might as well bite it off now!" he said annoyed. I looked at him with my anger rising but I was trying to stay calm.
"I wasn't going to bite your head off," I said simply.
"Oh yeah? I bet you were going to complain to me how I got lost and how stupid it was to get lost considering we live here and all."
"Did I complain at all?"
"No but you're going to."
"Will you just stop! I wasn't going to bite your head off!"
"Sure you weren't," he said rolling his eyes.
"What is wrong with you?" I asked.
"You bugging me all the time."
"I didn't do anything! Why are you being so mean?"
"I'm not being mean! I'm just saying that I want you to say what you were going to say so I don't need to hear about it later!"
"Just shut up and drive!" I said. I wasn't calm anymore. I was upset, why was he being so mean to me?
"Don't tell me what to do!"
"Why not!? You didn't listen to me in the first place and look where we ended up!" I yelled pointing out the window. We were no where near a city. Brian had this idea after the movie about just driving around and looking at the scenery and stuff. Great idea! NOT! Now we're lost and Brian's yelling at me for no reason.
"I'm not going to listen to you give me directions! I knew where I was going! You told me to go left so I went left and this is where we ended up!"
"I didn't tell you to go left and that exit!"
"Tiffany will you just let me drive and get off my back!"
"NO! Why are you being such an ass!?"
"Because you got us lost!"
"ME!? I didn't get us lost!"
"Just shut up and let me concentrate," he said. I crossed my arms across my chest and glared angrily out the window. We drove for about 15 more minutes when Brian spoke up again.
"Ah forget this!" he said and then pulled over.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm going to look at a map, Do you mind?" he asked.
"What the hell is your problem!?"
"YOU! Stop bugging me!"
"FINE! If it's me then maybe I should just get out of your life! Obviously you don't want me around!" I yelled. I opened the door of the jeep and jumped out. I slammed the door and then started to walk away from the car. I heard Brian open the door and jump out onto the pavement.
"Tiffany…" he called running after me. I just ignored him and kept walking.
"Tiffany, C'mon, get back in the car," Brian said running up to the side of me. I just ignored him.
"Please, I'm sorry," he said. I stopped and glared at him.
"You're sorry? That's all you say," I said. "Do you have nothing else you can say?"
"What am I supposed to say? I'm sorry isn't good enough?"
"I hear it all the time from you!"
"Well, I am sorry," he said.
"I don't believe you. What is wrong with you? We're not like we used to be. We're growing apart…" I said quietly.
"We're not growing apart, We're just in…a regular relationship."
"No Brian we're have grown apart and you know it," I said. He looked down and then back up at me.
"Admit it," I said. He looked at me sadly and nodded his head.
I frowned and said, "I thought so."
"But we love each other right? We can get through this. This is normal," he said.
"This isn't normal Brian. We fight non-stop, we're always in arguments with each other. I can't take this!"
"What are you saying?"
"I don't know! I just hate how we fight all the time! We used to never fight. We were so perfect for each other. You were so sweet and nice and you would never yell at me or be mean but now…" I sighed. "You've changed so much. It's like I don't even know you."
"I haven't changed at all Tiffany," Brian said looking into my eyes.
"What are you talking about? Of course you've changed. I've changed too. This whole thing between us has changed, not for the good but for the bad."
"Our relationship isn't bad."
"Yes it is! In good relationships people don't fight as much as we do and they get along so well. I can't take this Brian. We've grown apart and we're not the same together. I can't take anymore of all of this fighting."
"What are you suggesting we do then?" he asked nervously. I looked at him sadly and I knew I was going to regret the next thing I said but I think it would be the best for us.
"I think maybe we should take a break from each other."
"You want to break up?" he asked sadly. I just nodded my head.
"But we just got back together yesterday," he said.
"I know but…"
"Tiffany I don't want to break up. Don't you remember we're engaged?"
"I know that Brian but this would just be best for both of us."
"What about the kids?"
"We'll figure that out later," I said quietly.
"Tiffany, please! You don't know what you're saying. I don't want to lose you."
"You're not going to lose me. I'm still going to be around."
"But we belong together. We're getting married," he said. I shook my head and said, "Not right now."
"Baby…we can work this out! It's just a few fights nothing we can't handle."
"Maybe you can handle it but I can't!" I said. I was going to cry. This is so hard but I can't take this anymore. We've grown apart and I don't feel as close to him anymore.
"Don't you love me?" he asked sadly. A few tears escaped his eyes. I was about to answer but I stopped. Do I love him?
"Tiff? You still love me right?" Brian asked crying.
"I…" I began but stopped. Why is it so hard for me to say those words? I've said them so many times to him before. I looked up and him sadly. He had tears streaming rapidly down his face.
"Do you still love me?"
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