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Chapter 12
Sam~
"Do you really want to go?" Ryan asked me.
"Yeah."
"You don't want to say goodbye to him?"
"No. I'm scared that I would change my mind."
"Take me with you."
"I'm sorry. I need to be alone."
"Eriko, take care then, for my sake."
I nodded and he closed the taxi's door for me.
"Bye, Ryan."
"Bye. Keep in touch."
"I will. Can you please pass this letter to Brian?"
"Sure.
Brian~
At this time of the day, I knew Sam would not be at
home. So, I went back to take some things.
I met up with Ryan outside my apartment.
"You're back at last."
"What are you doing here?"
"Eriko is gone, 10 minutes ago."
"Really?"
"Can't you just show any anxiety?" he held me on my
collar. I did not struggled and he let go of me.
"Eriko asked me to hand this letter to you."
I took it from him and read it.
Brian,
No one is perfect. It is true love that closes
the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each
other. Maybe that's what we lack of. I don't know.
I have chosen to go away and leave your world.
The love, which hurts me, the love which makes you run away isn't the love
we are looking for.
When we ran out of memories, we have nothing else
to keep us together. Our songs - 'Eyes on Me', 'Two of Us', 'Come Close to
Me', 'Write a Song for You' - are just like the one you had torn. They are
all gone with the wind.
Maybe I am just a passer-by in your
live….
By the bye, I hate you, Brian!
Sam
No! It was not the truth. It dawned on me that I loved
her. The fact was I couldn't let her go. There was not way that we were going
to run out of memories.
"Tell me, where is she going?"
"She said I'm not allowed to tell you that."
"Please, I have to get her back."
"You really love her?"
"I do. I promise I will not hurt her anymore. She
is my treasure trove."
"Go and see in your study room."
Without any hesitation, I opened the door and dashed
into the study room. Oh, God! The four walls in my study room was painted
with me dream. The sunset, the giraffes, the elephants, the lions - the vast
land of Africa.
I found out the answer. Sam was going to my dreamland.
I took my documents and drove to the airport. But the congested traffics
impeded me from getting to the airport in time.
I had no time to waste. I stopped the car at the roadside
and got off. All that I could do now was run to the airport as fast as I
could.
Sam~
I was sitting in the plane heading Africa. No matter how hard I tried, the
tears still came down.
Someone sat down beside me. I could sense that he was staring at me.
"Sam?" he said. I turned and saw Brian McKnight. I forced a smile.
"You are crying."
"No." I turned away. I was annoyed when the seats were shaking.
"Can you stop fidgeting?" I turned to him and to my surprise the one now
sitting beside me was Brian.
"This time, I'm determined to swap places with Brian. Have a good talk,"
said McKnight.
"Huh? Economical seat?" I heard McKnight mumbled as he read the ticket that
Brian exchanged for his. I felt sorry for him. In my heart, I giggled.
"Sam, I'm sorry."
"Why are you here?"
"To get you back, of course."
"Really?"
"Yes."
"But I thought I said I hate you."
"There is hate only when there is love."
"But you said you don't love me anymore."
"That's a lie. The biggest lie that I had ever told. You aren't a passer-by
to me. You are my everything. And you said our songs were gone but there
are always in my heart and in yours too, I bet." He handed me some papers.
"This is the song that I intended to give you that day. It's still with me.
It's not gone."
"White Love"
Beyond those endless clouds
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Please take me there with you
Don't ever let go of my hands
From the mid-winter constellation,
White Love falls down
Descends and lies inside my heart.
It soaks my heart and turns into tears
Every time the wind sends our love to each other,
The bond grows stronger.
Even though we're apart, we are still together as one.
I know we are sharing the same sky, the same stars, and the same moon
Nights when you don't call, no matter how I pretend I don't care
But I really do miss you.
The endless light of the stars
By the love that fills my heart.
Now I want to hold you
An angel blesses this encounter!
Breaks out from the sky
And keep smiling forever!
Illumination is seeping through the window covered by my white sigh.
The happier I am, the uneasy I feel for tomorrow.
I hope my new schedule is full of your initials.
Because there is a next promise, I will go on.
When the snow melts and before spring arrives
I want to become the peace like the light between the woods for you.
Like the endless life of a star.