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Chapter 5
"That's ok. We're just having fun," persuaded Kevin.
"Well, kay."
"Yeah! Three on three," said Nick as he started to dribble the ball.
After the game, Brian and I went for a drink in a cafeteria nearby.
"What do you think of the guys?"
"Energetic."
"I found out that you're very quiet. You don't like to talk much." I kept quiet again.
"See. I thought we need to understand each other but how can we do that if you keep everything to yourself?"
"I'm sorry. But that's me. If I were given a chance, I would rather face plants or animals than humans. Humans are too sophisticated."
"But you have done a good job in understanding Ryan."
"We grew up together. That's why."
"Let me try. Let me understand you."
"In return, I'll try to understand you."
"Tell me, what kind of girls do you like?"
"Huh? Girls?" I couldn't control my words.
"Yeah. A girl's eyes are very appealing to me. They are the window of a person's soul. I also like a girl who is interested in her own career and treats me like normal person; not the Brian of BSB."
"Me? I don't set criteria on a person that I will like. A person doesn't come with speculations like cars or mobile phones. I believe when that person cross your path, you'll know he or she is the one." I had never expected that someone I admired so much would try to understand me with true heart. Talking with him was so soothing and comfortable. No pressure at all.
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Life is not a bed of roses. We had been recording this song for 2 days and this was the third. But I still couldn't get it right. The atmosphere in the studio tensed up. I knew everyone was tired. I knew it was already 12:00 a.m. I tried very hard but to no avail.
"Let's have a break," the producer finally said. I fetched a bottle of water from Ryan and went out of the room. My tired legs brought me to a balcony. I tried to think of nothing and appreciate the beauty of the stillness and the darkness of night.
The moon was a crescent.
"Things are like that sometimes," a voice broke the silence and startled me. I turned around and saw Brian standing in the dark.
"Things don't always turn out the ways you want it to be. But this doesn't mean that one must give up."
"But I'm burdening all of you."
"Don't you say that. Sometimes, this kind of situation happens to the BSB too."
"Maybe you're right. I want to be a dauntless spirit."
"Enjoying the pleasure of silence?"
"Yeah."
"Then, I must have disturbed you."
"No," I smiled, still looking at the sky, "it's an beautiful experience. First, you'll hear very soft sounds, which you have never heard before. Even the softest sounds which will usually escape the ear will be heard and appreciated."
"Yeah. It's at such times that confusing problems become clearer and the real values of painful experiences will become clear."
"That's why sometimes I prefer to keep quiet."
"If you love someone, put their names inside of a circle not a heart because a heart can be broken but a circle goes forever."
"Really? I've never tried this before. I only know that immature love defines, 'I need you because I love you.' But mature love defines, ' I love you because I need you.'"
"You know a lot, young lad."
"Let's sing a song."
"Which one?"
"See, the star studded-sky reminds me of 'Twinkle, Twinkle Little Stars.'"
"Why not?" Brian said as he laughed.
"1, 2, 3 ………Twinkle, twinkle little stars…"
"Hey, what are you guys doing? The producer wants you to be back in the studio on the double," Ryan interrupted us. Brian and I looked at each other and laughed.
"I don't know what's wrong with you guys. Fancy singing 'Twinkle, Twinkle Little Stars' at such age."
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We were having an out-location shooting near a fountain for my first single. I was asked to be myself because the wanted to catch the natural moments of my expressions and gestures. It was hard. I meant how could I be natural with so many pairs of eyes staring at me? But I know as a celebrity, I must get use to it. The director called off for a break.
"Sam, after that night of chatting with you, I composed a song for you. It just came to my mind like it was already there for a long time. But I haven't found any beautiful lyrics to match with it," Brian showed me the notes.
"Let me try. But I can't guaranteed any good work because it's my first time writing lyrics."
"Every oak has been an acorn. There's no harm to try."
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Two of Us
Forever
two of us To be the two of us
Here we are, gazing at the star-studded sky.
We seem alone in space and eternity "Sweetest Night"
In the mystical beauty of the frigid hour,
Let me leave a butterfly kiss on your cheek.
In this big big world,
We are destined to meet each other.
God must have given us His blessings.
"Present for you" the twinkling horizon.
Carve this scene in your heart and let it stay there forever.
We continue our walk on the limitless expanse of the ocean.
Our love fills the air.
I had been looking for true love
I had been hurt before
Then, you crossed my path and bring sheen to my life.
Let this magical moment which is created for the two of us
sealed our love forever.
The crescent moon lays over the ocean like a luminous boat,
with the two of us in it.
The sky has turned gold with the sun's ray.
But this is twilight.
Let us not lose any moment.
If you believe it, we'll have our own fairy tale.
"Kiss me, trust me." Prove your love for me.
Only then we could go through the obstacles together.
Let me be the one in your arms.
Reach out for me because you're not dreaming.
Don't vanish like a puff of smoke.
Let the golden rays smite us in the face.
Tomorrow will be ours -Two of Us-
Pray hard it will be this way.
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