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Chapter 13
The day I had been dreading for the whole three day weekend had finally arrived. I had prayed that maybe just maybe if I wished hard enough the day would never come, but obviously that wasn't possible. Nick and I had arrived back at the hotel around 7:00 in the morning, just in time for breakfast at the hotel. We came back to my room, and sat on my bed with the food we had ordered. I knew that I wouldn't be getting any sleep that day, but that didn't bother me because there was plenty of time for sleep when I got home. I wanted to spend as much time with Nick, and the rest of my friends, as I could before I had to be dropped off at home.
"Are you packed yet?" I asked him while munching on my croissant.
"Nope. I'll just throw my clothes into the suitcase. I don't care. I'm not gonna spend my valuable Rebecca time packing."
"Rebecca time?"
"Yep!!"
I laughed uncontrollably at what Nick had just said.
"You find that funny?" he teased.
"Actaully.. Yeah! Very funny!"
"Then you'll probably find this a lot funnier!" Nick pushed the food aside, and began to tickle my sides.
"Nick! NO! NO! NO!! Please stop!" I demanded, while still laughing. I am assuming I wasn't very intimidating, because he didn't stop.
"Nick, please! Oh my god, I think I am gonna die!"
By this time I was curled up in a little ball, hugging myself tightly, with tears streaming down my face from laughing so hard.
"You had enough or do you want some more?" Nick questioned.
"I've---had---plenty!" I managed to say between tears.
Nick stopped, and I sat up immediately punching him on his arm, pretending to be angry. I wasn't mad at him at all. I could never be mad at him for such a stupid reason. It was impossible.
There was a knock at the door, and without even waiting for an answer Brian strolled in acting like he owned the place.
"Hey guys!" He said cheerfully. He noticed that I had tears in my eyes, and rushed to my side. "Becc, what the hell is wrong?"
"Nothing.. Nick was just tickling me so much that I began to cry."
"God, you scared me! Don't you ever do that again!" Brian said with a look of relief, and a smile on his face. "You packed yet? The bus is here, and will be leaving in approximately 45 minutes. So, you better hurry up if your not done."
"I would have been done if Nick hadn't begun to tickle me!"
"And Nick, you still have to pack your crap too, right?"
Nick nodded.
"Then go do it! What are you waiting for! We have to get going here in a few minutes.. And I know that your room is a mess," Brian stated.
"And how are you so sure about that?"
"Cause it always is!"
"Well, I guess that's true," Nick agreed. "Alright, I'll go pack. See you in a few Becc!"
"See ya down there," Brian said walking out with Nick.
Brian and Nick were so cute together. They always looked out for each other in any way that was possible, always having each other's backs in one way or another.
'Now, I gotta get this mess picked up..' I said to myself.
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35 minutes later my bag was packed, my make-up was in my carrying case, my purse was organized as it usually was being that I am a neat freak, and I was dressed for the long trip that I was really not looking forward to.
I was wearing my baggy khakis, with a white tube top showing off my flat, and toned stomach, and my white 'Adidas' with silver lining.
I grabbed my bag, make-up case, and my purse, and trudged out of the room where I bumped into Nick. When I say bumped, I mean literally bumped. My make-up case was knocked onto the floor, and make-up was strewn all over the green carpet in the hallway.
"God, I am such a clutz! Sorry, Becca!"
I just smiled and assured him that it was no big deal. After all the commotion Nick told me that he had finished packing his bags, and had taken them down the lobby where everyone else was waiting for them.
"Let me help you with your bag," Nick offered.
"Thanks, Nick. Do you have any idea if the bus is leaving right away? I wanna buy some gifts for my friends back home."
"Probably soon, so let's hurry!"
"What do you think of this?" I asked Leighanne in the gift shop of the lobby. I was holding a small silver jewelry box, with 'San Francisco' engraved in the front. On the inside; where you would hold your jewelry there was smooth red velvet.
"That's really cute. I'm sure your friends would love it."
"Should I just buy four of the same thing?"
"Yeah.. I think so.. It's a great gift. It's simple, but gets your point across."
"And that point would be...?"
"That you missed them of course! I mean, you did miss them, right?"
"Yeah.. I did. But, not as much as I probably should have. I had too much fun this weekend, excluding the little 'incident' last night, to even think about my friends. I know it sounds rather selfish, but--"
"No, it doesn't sound selfish at all, Becc! Trust me, I know how you are feeling right now. I had to go through the same thing with my friends. When I first came on tour with the guys, I stayed for about a week," Leighanne explained, "and to tell you the truth, I don't think I thought of them once. I was having too much fun getting acquainted with all of Bri's friends, who are now some of the closet friends I have ever had, and probably will ever have. You are going through the same thing as I was, and I totally know how you are feeling. And trust me, it's only normal. Plus, you'll have some really good stories to tell your friends when you get back..." Leighanne smiled, and I laughed at her comment.
"That's actually pretty true. I have a lot of crap I need to tell them.."
"Such as?" Leighanne asked.
"Oh, nothing..." I said smiling, and turning my back to her. I grabbed four of the silver jewelry boxes and went to pay. Leighanne followed me, and grabbed my arm.
"Is there something you haven't been telling me that I should know?" she asked mischievously.
"No, there's nothing.." I said smiling that same smile that I had smiled earlier. A very sly one, that held probably my most important secret at the time.
"Come on, Becc, I know there is something.. Please tell me.." she pleaded.
"Leighanne, there's nothing..." I said with another one of my grins that by that time she probably hated me for. I paid the cashier, and put the four boxes in my purse, thanked the man, and walked out of the store with Leighanne at my heels.
"Becc! I'm not gonna stop asking you until you give me an answer.."
"I told you, it's nothing.."
"Then what's that smile for?" she asked pleading to know my secret that I wanted to actually KEEP a secret from her as long as I possibly could. This was getting pretty fun. "Oh my god, I know!!!" she yelled throwing her arms up into the air in triumph.
By this time we had reached the lobby, and all the guys were waiting around talking amongst themselves waiting for bus to pull up to the hotel. There were screaming girls outside the hotel with flowers, and gifts waiting outside for the guys to finally exit the hotel and get onto the bus. All the guys conversations seized and they looked at Leighanne and myself. Everyone had heard Leighanne scream, and they looked up to see what the outburst was all about.
"You and Nick had sex!!!!" she said even louder than before which was not very possible, since she had been so loud the first time. She hadn't realized that everyone had their eyes glued on us. When she finally saw that the guys eyes had bugged out of their heads, and their jaws had almost nearly dropped to the floor, she came to the realization that they had all heard what she said.
I could feel my cheeks grow red right away, and I looked directly towards the floor not wanting to look up. I wasn't angry at Leighanne or anything, I just didn't think that it was right to publicize to the whole world that we had had sex. It was my first time, and it was supposed to be a special, and memorable time in my life. I didn't really want all the guys to know my business with Nick unless I wanted to actually tell them. I peeked up and looked at Nick. Nick tried to play it off, and just smiled. He wasn't even embarrassed. Or, if he was, he did a very good job at acting as if he didn't.
Leighanne noticed how embarrassed and red I had gotten, and quickly apologized. "Oh god, Becc, I'm sooo sorry.. I didn't even realize how loud I was! God, I am such an idiot!"
"Leighanne, don't beat yourself up over it," I comforted, "it's not that big of a deal." But, in my heart it was a big deal. It was a very big deal, and I was kind of getting angry at the fact that Nick didn't even seem to care.
Leighanne looked towards the floor, and dug her feet into the carpet, ashamed.
"Leighanne.. Don't worry about it, girl! I'm already over it!" I said trying to make her feel better.
"The bus is here!" Kevin announced, changing the subject.
Nick grabbed his suitcase and walked towards the bus. He didn't even bother to help me with my stuff, which angered me even more. He jumped onto the bus, and I saw him sit down.
I began to drag my way heavy bag towards the bus, when I heard AJ ask, "Need any help?"
"Yeah, sure. That'd be great.."
His muscular arms grabbed my bag, and he slung it over his shoulder, without a difficulty and with his other hand he carried his suitcase.
"Damn boy! You have some major muscle going on!"
He laughed, and dropped the bags in the storage area.
"Thanks Bone."
"No prob! Come on. Let's get on the bus..."
The bus was loaded, and everyone was comfortably seated around or near the table. We had been driving for about an hour, and Nick had barely muttered a word to me, or to any of the others.
"Can I please get out?" I asked Howie who was sitting right next to me. He got up with no questions asked, and I got out walking over to Nick who was lying down on the sofa across from the table with a baseball cap pulled down over his eyes.
"Nick.."
There was no answer. He didn't even look up at me.
"Nick?? Can we please talk?" I asked him.
He lifted his baseball cap, and looked into my confused eyes. I really had no idea why he was acting like this, and it was killing me. I wanted to know if I could do anything to help.
"Yeah... Sure.." he said reluctantly.
I turned and walked towards the game room with Nick following close behind.
"Now.. Nick.. Can you please tell me what's wrong?" I pleaded.
We were seated on the couch. The couch where AJ and I had been sitting when we shared our first kiss and Nick had walked in on us. I had my legs tucked under my butt, and Nick was sitting with his head resting on the couch, and his hands comfortably placed in his lap.
"Nothing's wrong."
"I know that something is wrong. Can we please talk about it?"
"I don't feel like it.." He said with a harsh tone in his voice.
This was the first time that Nick was being so cold with me. I didn't like it. Not one bit.
"Then why did you agree to come in here?" I asked getting up from the couch.
"I dunno."
"Nick! Damn it! What the fuck is up your ass!?"
He looked taken aback by what I had just said. He had never seen this side of me before, and I think it scared him. Actually, now that I think of it, I don't think I have ever seen that side of me before either. I never got angry at anyone, other than my matter. It just really pissed me off that the man I loved, the man that I had just given myself to, was being so cold with me.
"What's your problem?" he asked.
"Your not telling me what's wrong.. I just wanna know what the hell is wrong!"
"Well, if you think I'm gonna tell you when you are yelling at me, your wrong," he barked back.
I took a deep breath, and sat back down. "Your right," I said while placing my hand on his knee, "I need to calm down." I took another deep breath, and smiled at him. "I'm calm. Now, please would you tell me what's bothering you? Is it about what Leighanne said?"
"Yeah, actually it is."
"I was pretty angry about that too."
"I'm not angry. I just didn't really want the guys to know that we had done the deed."
"Are you ashamed to tell them?" I asked in horror.
"No! No! Not at all! I just don't want them knowing everything about me.. I just feel that there are some things that should be kept a secret."
"I feel the same way.."
"You do?" he asked shocked.
"Of course I do. I don't want everyone knowing that we had sex. Not unless I wanted to tell them."
He nodded his head. "I'm glad you feel the same way as I do."
I smiled at him, and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "There's nothing we can really do about it now, so let's just forget about it. OK?"
"Alright," he said agreeing. "Come here.."
I scooted closer to him, and he wrapped his arms around me, giving me a kiss on top of my head.
"We only have a few more hours together, so let's make the best of it," he said with a grin. He began to lift my tube top up. "Oooo.. Strapless bra, huh? I like."
"Nick! We can't do this right now!"
"And why not?"
"Cause what if someone was to walk in on us!"
"They won't.." he said kissing my neck.
"Well, what if they do?"
"They won't. Trust me," he assured.
I wasn't too sure about it, but I trusted him to know what was right, so I allowed him to take off my top. And eventually, my pants also.
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