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Chapter 1
I look horrible…I've got ugly dark circles under my eyes, my face has almost no emotion in it anymore, whatever is scaring me is slowly killing me.
"I'm getting you help." Nick stated firmly.
"No" I said emotionless.
"Please?" He asked, a hint of hopefulness in his voice.
"Uh-uh." I answered back, being stubborn.
"Honey, you need help, it's been two full weeks since you've had a restful night sleep, this can't be good for you. You're getting help." He reasoned.
I looked at him, pools of water threatening to fall from my eyes. "Don't you love me?" I asked my voice faltering. He rushed to my side pulling me into a tight embrace.
"Yes, don't ever, ever, question my love for you. Baby, I just want this nightmare to be over, it's killing us both." His tone a little softer than before. We sat in the embrace a little while longer until I finally broke the silence.
"Okay." I said ever so softly.
"Okay what?" He questioned knowing full well what I meant but wanting it to come from me and not him.
"I'll get help." I said staring into his eyes, normally blue and vibrant, now cloudy and tired. He closed his eyes and drew a deep breath.
"Thank you." He said before pulling me in for a lingering kiss.
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"Christy?" The receptionist asked softly.
"Yes?" I said looking up from the magazine I had been flipping through aimlessly.
"The doctor will see you now." She said
"Okay…can my boyfriend come in with me?" I asked.
"Of course." She said with a soft motherly smile.
"DR. S.L. Smith (psychiatry)" read the door to the doctor's office that Nick and I were about to enter.
"You ready?" Nick asked slightly squeezing my hand.
"Yeah…I'm ready." I said taking a deep breath before twisting the door handle and entering.
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"You're stressed out." The doctor said looking up from her notes.
"But I have nothing to be stressed out about." I reasoned with her.
"What about college?" She asked looking at me.
"What about it?" I asked back.
"Have you thought about going?"
"Well, yeah, occasionally." I said slightly shaking my head.
"So, are you going to go?" She asked, her eyebrows raised.
"No, I decided that I was going to take a break from school for a while, ya know, live life a little while before settling down. I also wanted to tour with my boyfriend and his band for a few months, maybe work with them." I answered looking at Nick whom immediately looked down.
"I think you should go." Nick said finally looking up.
"I agree." The doctor added. "I'll let you take it from here Mr. Carter, if you need me have the receptionist page me." The doctor said and then walked out of the room leaving me and my love alone to discuss my, possibly our future.
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