|
|
Prologue
Tiffany's View
I was in my room folding laundry. Sounds fun huh? I've finally gotten out of bed and I'm in my regular routine but I'm still depressed. Michelle's back now and she's not herself. She misses her daddy. I miss her daddy.
I guess you could say that I'm not myself either. I'm not happy. I don't laugh anymore and whenever the guys try to cheer me up it just back fires and I start crying. I've gotten many letters from fans saying how sorry they are and to hope that I'm all right. Of course I'm not all right! My boyfriend just died! And to make matters worse he proposed to me right before he did die! I'm supposed to be all right!? YEAH RIGHT! Anyway I'm happy that the fans care about my feelings and I've thanked them for there notes. I'm just happy that they don't hate me.
The Backstreet Boys are going to take time off to sort everything out. I mean one of their main singer is gone so they need to see who's going to sing his part. The songs will never be the same. Without Brian's heavenly voice the songs would sound way to different and depressing. He lights up the songs with his voice. Well, at least to me it does. Anyway the guys said they should be back on tour and in the studio in a year or so.
Nick and Darlene are going strong. They really are in love. I'm really happy for them. Darlene moved in with Nick like a week ago and she's helping him through this rough time. I know that it's fast with Darlene moving in with him but they really are in love and they felt like it was right for Darlene to move in with Nick.
AJ and Amanda broke up a few weeks ago. What a time to end it huh? I mean he was really depressed before and now he must be crushed! He won't talk about what happened. I don't ask him about it. I don't want to make him cry even though we all do that often.
Howie and Stacey are going strong too. They're really happy and they are both helping each other through all this. I want someone to hold and kiss me just like Howie does to Stacey. I'm so jealous.
Mary and Kevin are back together finally! They got back together like a week after the funeral. Mary felt so sorry for Kevin so she talked to him and well Kevin told her what happened. She forgave him and know they're back together. Kevin's crushed about Brian. He isn't himself at all. In fact, everyone isn't themselves. We're all totally different people. Brian isn't here to cheer us up anymore. We'll never hear his stupid jokes or his impressions again. Life is going to be so dull and boring without him in our lives but mostly in mine. He's everything to me and now that he's gone a big part of me is gone too. I'll never be the same.
Josh is dead. I couldn't be happier about that because I would have killed him myself. He's ruined my life and it's all his fault. Well, not totally his fault. Sara, Mandy, and Leighanne are to blame too! Why did they have to kidnap Darlene and me? If they didn't kidnap us Brian would still be alive. I hate them so mush! Thank God they're in prison. I think for 10 to 15 years. I'm really happy about that.
Well, that's pretty much what's been going on with everyone. Well, there's one more thing. I just found out that I'm pregnant. 2 and a half months in two weeks. Surprise! It's Brian's not anyone else's so don't think that I cheated on him. I would never do that to him. I don't know the sex yet but I will soon. My life's just perfect isn't it? I mean Brian wasn't there when Michelle was born and know he won't be here to witness our second child's birth. It's so sad to think that my baby will never know his or her father. I really hope that he knows that I love him and that I always will.
Brian's View
I was on the bed looking at Tiffany fold her cloths.
I could read every thought that she was thinking and I can feel what she
was feeling. I want to hold her but every time that I try to I just go right
through her. It's so hard to watch her cry. You have no idea.
Right after I died I went to heaven and God gave me
the job of watching and protecting Tiffany. Of course I was excited about
watching her but seeing her so sad and depressed makes me sad and depressed.
The first day I watched her was the day of my funeral. Let me tell you that
that was really depressing seeing all the people that I love so dearly cry
and mourn all because of me. I never knew that I could inflict so much pain
on others.
From what I've read of Tiffany's thoughts is that
she's pregnant. I'm really happy that she's having another one of my kids
but I'm sad because I won't be able to help her and take care of our new
child. How can my life be so miserable?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~