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Chapter 10
December 26th 11:30 p.m.
Here I am in one of Brian's many guestrooms awake in a cold sweat. I just
had possibly the worst dream of my life. I was in a subway standing on the
tracks not knowing what to do. All of the sudden a subway train started charging
for me, all I could see was the blinding lights and all I could hear were
voices saying that I was leaving this world never to return and I was HAPPY
to be on death road. Right before I got hit I woke up, that's when I realized
that I really missed my parents and wanted them with me, hence the dream,
I was happy to be dying in it because I wanted to be with my parents. I decided
to go to the one person I knew would be awake. I slowly crept down the hall
to the third door to the left and softly knocked.
"Come in" I heard a soft voice say. I walked in quietly my slow sobs heard.
"N….iccckkk??" I questioned softly through my cries
"Oh gosh, Christy, what's wrong??"
"I…I..I miss my mom and dad Nick. Oh, Nick, I just don't know what to
do anymore, I don't know how much longer I can be strong without them!!"
"Come here." Nick said opening his sheets and patting the bed motioning for
me to come lie down by him. I laid down burying my head into his chest as
he hugged me tightly. After I had calmed my tears Nick looked down at me
with a sympathetic smile.
"You want to talk about it??" he asked softly as if to let me know that I
didn't have to answer.
"I just can't do it without them anymore, I can't get through this alone
like I've been trying to do." I said somewhat calm now.
"But, Christy, your NOT alone, you have AJ, the guys, ME. Please don't try
to do it alone, we're here to help you. Okay??"
"Yeah, thank you so much Nick, will you always be there though?"
"ALWAYS Christy, always and forever, no question about it."
"thanks." I said before softly starting to cry again, this time both happy
and sad tears, sad because of the tragic loss of my family almost a year
ago and happy because I had such wonderful friends.
"Shhhh….it's okay, I'm here…..I'm not going anywhere, why don't
you just stay here tonight, I'll hold you and make sure you are all right.
Do you want to do that??"
"Yeah, I do." I said, trying to subside my tears.
"All right, why don't I sing to you? Maybe it'll put you to sleep." Then
he started…
Open up your heart to me
Nick kept his singing going until my breaths were slow and even and then
he fell asleep too.
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And say what's on your mind
I know that we have been through so much, baby
But I still need you in my life this time
I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
Cause I see heaven in your eyes