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Chapter 2
Brian's View
I can't believe what Jason told me. Why would Tiffany
wan to make suicide? I really am speechless. I don't want her to do that.
Michelle needs her and so do the other guys. I just need to tell her that
she shouldn't do it but I can't. Maybe if I just let her hear me or something
and be careful about it. No, that wouldn't work. Jason watches me 24/7 to
see if I'm watching her correctly and if I'm doing something I'm not supposed
to be doing. Why can't I let her see me? It will make things so much easier.
Oh well. Someday maybe I'll get to talk to her. I can only hope.
I lied next to Tiffany and looked at her sleeping
face. Like always she cried herself to sleep so her cheeks are flushed.
"I love you baby," I whispered. She just laid still.
I frowned and just stared at her. I'm so lucky to have her love. I really
don't deserve her. She's so beautiful and caring. I don't see how she can
put up with me. Well, she doesn't have to put up with me anymore. I just
wish I could have made her happier. She kept saying she was happy with me
but I always thought that nothing was good enough for her. I would give her
anything that she wanted. Anything. I would even buy her a continent if I
could but the one thing that I can't give her now is just to hold her and
kiss her. That's all she asks for everyday. I realize now that all she wanted
from me was my love. That's it. She just wanted me and I can't give that
to her anymore and it tears me apart. I want her to be happy. I would do
anything for her to be happy.
I raised my hand and brought it to her face. I knew
that my hand would go right through her but I couldn't help it. I brought
my hand up to her cheek and to my surprise it didn't go through her skin.
I yanked back my hand and looked at her in shock. I can't believe it! My
and didn't go through her! I slowly broke my hand to her cheek and stroked
it gently. She stirred and moaned quietly.
"BRIAN!" I heard someone yell. I jumped up off the
bed and looked at Jason with wide eyes.
"WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING HER!?" he yelled. His eyes were
flashing.
"I didn't mean to!" I yelled. "I just touched her
and my hand didn't go through!"
"I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS! HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD
YOU NOT TO THINK ABOUT TOUCHING HER!?"
"Probably like a million times," I said.
"Well, there's a good reason for that!"
"Look Jason! You have no idea how hard it is to look
at my girlfriend in so much pain! I hate seeing her like this and all I want
to do is hold her and say everything will be all right! I don't see why that
isn't OK!"
"You're dead Brian! That's why!"
"Do you think that I don't know that!? I'm miserable
here! I have no one! NO ONE! I miss my best friends, I miss the fans, I miss
my family, I miss singing, I miss my daughter Michelle and I really miss
Tiffany! I just want to be alive again! Why did I have to die!? WHY!?"
"I don't know! HE never told me but you can't do this!
It's not safe for you!"
"HOW!? I don't see how loving someone is
dangerous!"
"Brian I'm just looking out for you!"
"Well, look after someone else!"
"I can't do that! I just don't want you getting into
trouble!"
"How can I get into trouble!? I just don't see why
I can't touch her! TELL ME WHY!?"
"Just don't ever do that again!"
"What aren't you telling me!? I know there's something!
TELL ME!"
"NO! It's not the right time!"
"What!? I can't believe you!"
"Brian I'm warning you! If you keep this up nothing
will come out of it!"
"Well, you're wrong about that," I said.
"If you will just trust me. Don't do that. I promise
you that something good will come along. I promise," he said calming
down.
"Fine," I said.
"OK," he said.
"Don't do that ever again," he said.
"I got it!" I yelled. He looked at me for a second
and then faded away. I looked at Tiffany and frowned. What good can ever
come out of this?
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